today's a nice day. i got to know yesterday that we will be going for a movie on saturday. simpsons. but will this really come true? that's what happen everytime. you back out at the last minute. then what's that supposed to mean? haiss... what will become of us lehh?

you're an idiot, y dun uu just admit it? how can uu be so indifferent? like nothing has happened before? u're a guy and can't you take more initiative? i dun wan to be the only one giving, love is a two way thing, get it? wad's it supposed to mean when u just ignore my sms and conversation like that???? I HATE YOU!

i love you
my world revolves around you
every now and then i think of you
and whenever i think of youu,
i cannot help but smile
you make my day

i dun wanna run away but i can't take it, i dun understand
i hope u're the one i share my life with
i pray that u're tge one i build my home with
i miss ur body and soul so strong
cos i love
whether it's wrong or right
though i can't be with uu tonite
if i'm not made for you
then why does my heart tell me that i am
is there any way that i can stay
in your arms?

When i woke up today, what happened yesterday came across my mind, or rather, flooded my mind. it seemed like a fantasy, a legend, something that will never exist, you know what i mean? it's terribly unreal. Now that both of us know our feelings for each other, what's supposed to happen next? Then all of a sudden, a lot of worries came in. He's skinny to the bone, i'm plump, will we look perculiar together? He's a sportsman, i'm like, a sports-moron. He's indian, I'm chinese. How?
Then he never reply my sms!!! what's that supposed to mean? i admitted i like him, then the game's over? he won? haisssss

yesterday was the day. i told him through an sms , or rather, asked," Do you like me, more than just a friend?" i really mastered a lot of courage to be able to ask that question, which is something i've longed to ask, since long ago. i made up my mind to ask him that after o'levels and regardless of his answer, start my life anew. I remembered sometime in December that i had typed out a whole long sms and hesitated when i was to hit the 'send' button. In the end, all courage failed and i did not send the sms. In a blink of an eye, 7 months have passed dince and i finally got the courage to ask. I have to admit, i'm very timid and without courage.
okay, back to what happened yesterday. He replied, " ob cos, you're great, Maria!" I almost fainted in desperation. What is the meaning of that reply? it's like in between a yes and a no, did he not get what i was trying to ask? was he a freak alright? hmm.. i was too livid even to reply his sms. When i thought all was lost, he actually messaged me again. His mentioned something about dinner which i did not pay much attention to, because what caught my attention was what he said at the end. " so, am i more than just your good friend?"
Well perhaps i was glad, but i did not want to reply with something as straightforward as a " yes, i like you" when he nearly made me die out of anger a few minutes ago. i replied with something like, " what do you want me to say? of course, you're great?" i didn't think so much then, he had gotten on my nerves and i was not in a calm state of mind.
His next reply made my day, hmm, or night, actually. haha. He said," tell you on the phone is very bad, you want to watch harry potter? yea?"
And i melted. he liked me. The feeling was so sweeeeet. i mearly screamed but in fear of alerting my mum who was in the living room, i gave tiny squeeks of excitement instead. 11 july, my day, our day.